Thursday, December 30, 2004
Tsunami coverage cont.
Several people have noted and wondered about the fact that many dying and/or dead bodies are being shown. It's awfully difficult to see, of course, although they bring the horror home as nothing else would do.

I was in the UK on 9/11/01 which was odd because it made the experience seem like watching a great big cosmic movie, not like a real event happening in the city where I grew up. I kept trying to see what had happened, locate it in a temporal and geographical context so I could wrap my awareness around it clearly, but all I found in papers and magazines (both British and American) were anesthesized images. Almost pretty. Remember that hazy photo of the side of one of the buildings looking like an op art grill rising out of the ashes? And those French film makers who were rebuked when they wanted to include a few pictures of falling and/or fallen bodies in their (wonderful) film? Why the difference?

Here's some of what I think. If I assume entirely good or neutral motives on the part of everyone involved, maybe 9/11 was so startling and horrific that no news people could stomach the most ghastly images. But now three years have passed and everyone's learned to assimilate more horror than ever. Yet I'm afraid that I find myself thinking that a more important difference is that the Asian casualities are so monumental - in quantity and in terms of having happened to faceless and numberless people - that no one is can be thinking of each individual involved, certainly not as individuals in the same sense as the people who died in the World Trade Center. There's a part of me that thinks it's viewed by the visual media the way herds of animals are viewed. And of course we can watch them die without cringing too much. Yes, that may be unfair (and even untrue) but it's how it feels to me.

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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
On (not) viewing my blog
Update - 1/8/05. By randomly trying things, I found that everything is viewable when I click on archive listings. For some reason, current entries are completely viewable there although not on the main page.

Original post: I find it frustrating that I often cannot view my blog from either my home or my work computer. I write the posts and see them, then, and the page accepts all changes, but they simply do not display. At work we have massive firewalls so I'm sure that's the problem there but at home there's no such issue. Also, I was able to create a new blog at work, and see it, and make new posts to it, but any visual changes continue to be invisible. It reminds me of when I learned to type and my mother threw a scarf over my hands so I couldn't watch my fingers as I went along. It was a bit of torture but it worked. Will this work to teach me how to write without seeing the results??!

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Sunday, December 26, 2004
Bless my sister!
Blessings to my sister and the light of renewal which she lit on Christmas. I spent Christmas day at her house and it was really wonderful.

Because she and I are many years apart in age (I the elder by a ridiculous number of years), we shared little of either of our childhoods. I remember an adorable little girl running around when I came home from college, and there are some fabulous photos of the two of us. It always looked charming but it didn't make for close sisters. Plus, there was a fair amount of negativity (for want of more descriptive and more weighted words) in our family. My sister learned to be nimble in stepping around most rancor, leading some to think she was merely oblivious, but it really meant that she had taught herself how to go on. Although I concluded that everything I did would eventually result in someone being angry at me, she concluded simply (and much more helpfully, I guess) that she could trust only herself. Consequently, she learned to rely on herself and her own judgment, and she has developed enormous creativity and imagination. I admire and love her immensely.

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Saturday, December 25, 2004
Happy Winhanuholiramakwanzmaskahstice to all, and to all a good night!! (copyright 2004)

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Friday, December 3, 2004
What is it about Malcolm in the Middle?
No doubt it shows I'm really warped or have no sense of humor or something, but I really cannot get into Malcolm in the Middle. I love the actors, I love quirky behavior, I love children, I love goofy (sometimes). But this is just too out there for me. It reminds me of clowns. And pantomine. Big ugh is all I can think. I love watching light comedies after the regular evening is over and before I can bring myself to go to bed, so I've become a devotee of Seinfeld and That 70's Show repeats, even King of the Hill. But the station that shows them plays around with the spot between Seinfeld and Just Shoot Me. Sometimes it's Simpsons (which is a little weak at that time of night, for me) and sometimes it's an extra 70's Show episode. Recently it's MITM and I'm finally ready to admit that it's driving me NUTS. Sometimes I'm reduced to eighth-time repeats of Law & Order on USA. Gee, if only I believed in going to bed to get a so-called adequate night's sleep but how silly is that?

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